February 2012
1 post
December 2011
1 post
“Flush it!”
August 2011
1 post
July 2011
3 posts
15 años de infierno tal vez terminaron hoy!!!
NO LO PUEDO CREER!
I think she said I passed!!!
OMG I THINK I ALMOST DIED!! 1O KILOGRAMS ARE DOWN AND A NEW WAY OF SEEING LIFE! BELIEVE JUST BELIEVE!
June 2011
8 posts
fuck it!
FUCK PEOPLE WHO THINK THEY CAN TAKE THEIR SWEET TIME AND FUCK OFF OTHER PPLS SHITZ….
May 2011
4 posts
Do you ever get so mad at someone that you want to...
1 month and 11 days!
Today is the 11th day of the first month without that stupid medication. Im free, I have my ups and downs but I least I know I control it myself. I´m off from it people.
March 2011
2 posts
7th day and counting!
Today is my 7th day out of my Paxil medication. Im hoping the withdrawal period and the effects will conclude next thursday if not sooner. I´m on my way to being natural as natural as posible. As for my OCD things I feel better much better, and if it ever shows up again, acupunture, and other natural medicines will be of my best choice. Im on the road for life! Never again will I put a drug like...
As long as you´re here....
I WILL KEEP BREATHING!
November 2010
1 post
Im ready to go!
Ok, so Im so excited about this, I have been on medication for my OCD for at least 2 years and it´s time to come off from it. It has been too much. I need to be healthier. The plan is to take down slowly. Today is my very first day with half of the pill, and I will go down slowly until is out of my system and my brain is reacting normally.
So far today was good, I exercised as they recommend and...
October 2010
2 posts
I write what I don´t mean.
I have written things in here for which I feel guilty now. Whenever I said horrible things I perhaps was a in a crisis moment.
The laughter....
Crying like it´s never been said….
September 2010
1 post
fuck and fuck!
fuck plus fuck is fuck…. two plus two is the same as me…………………………………………………….
June 2010
7 posts
Im in love!
OH YEAH DUBBIE DO!
fuck and fuck
When I talk I have to shut up. When I talk it´s barely taken into consideration. You scream to the loudest and let me know Im stupid, so that I end up saying come on love it´s ok. It´s ok is been my favorite word so far.
On the other side you´re there, dad, dad, the one I haven´t seen since God knows where. Would it be stupid to say I miss you? I don´t know…….
May 2010
7 posts
I asked myself a question...
why is the sky do distant? I don´t stupidity cannot concentrate in one single brain. Perhaps Im sitting here happy today but yesterday was a living nightmare. I wish I could have recorded for the record. One more crisis and a million more to go. I survived this time. I kept the one I love. I cried but I dried my tears.
I don´t know who to thank anymore, because by thanking myself I thanked...
Listen to the oldies switch your heart out....
It’s 4:00 am in the morning and Im out here listening to the oldies…
Oh happy day when jesus came!
How the music can revive my soul?
Amazing grace...
I shall discuss with my soul the itinerary of my traveling. The new course over which I might not see anymore pain. Saddly I will miss the views of the sun while in my pain. The torture of have being born with this disease. Killing me softly I feel the sun and the rain closer to me. Im vivid. Im sooner than later going down the hill again. Im not here not Im not. No one can really understand. I...
It's a terrible thing...
Watch you its horrible. This is terribly discusting. Annoying to my last nerve. Its almost obessive. How fucking horrible. I dont even have the nerve to break it down to your face. I wish I wasn’t so in love with you.
oh, Darling. ♥: breakdown.. →
I couldn’t hold it anymore…I broke down once i got inside the damn shower. I’m sick and tired of everything..people judging me..and their stereotypes..school..people…school..people.. so I asked my mom if i could go to a psychologist or something..idk if it will help..but perhaps having someone to…
April 2010
2 posts
No hay mas miedo, no hay mas llanto.
¿Qué es esto que siento? ¿qué son estas lagrimas? Malditos los sentimientos que me coronan a sentirlo así. Quiero ser viento, quiero ser sol, quiero ser una cometa que vuele. Quiero ser una paloma, quiero ser una mariposa. Sin sentimientos, una corona de pájaros, en el medio del desierto. No quiero sentir, por que si siento tengo miedo de caer, y si siento tú me lastimas.
Oh My God!
I just told a guy who was crossing by the classroom windown dude whats your problem? and my french professor thought I was speaking to him…
March 2010
7 posts
Anonimatus
She is there… of course she is…. No one sees her but the moon does… it is nothing more unexplainable than the emancipation of a soul. She had sat outside to watch the rain…. and so I heard her. The color of her voice which seemed to resemble the color of pain… A plain purple sound that said nothing about who she had been before. An internal crying… The voice of...
La mañana del 16 de junio en la oficina de...
Ah llegado! ah llegado! Amanece y es casi imprensindible el mirar el calendario. Es la manana del 16 de febrero del 2008. Es el dia prometido, la profesia de moises y el pueblo israelita se cumpliria en mi. Es Rapido Maria!! escucho a mi madre desde el fondo del apartmento. No se si sera mi fatiga por el que pasara, o si son los nervios que atacan desde el dedo gordo de mis pies hasta el ultimo de...
Silencio
Silencio
Silencio
Silencio, Amargo, Mortal, Silencio
Silencio
Amargo, Victorioso.
Silencio
Amargo Veneno de Almas.
Silencio Vacio
Silencio, despertar de sesos.
Silencio, Bienestar de Humanos
Silencio
Grita silencio
Una madre en Irak.
Silencio
Gritó un...
Exile
Mind, Body and Soul have all been disconnected. I have seen the sun and yet I don’t quite understand it. Let this precious moment be near me. For I do not hold any regrets. I breath, Yet I don’t feel any oxygen. If I were simply just a women, I would be telling yet another story. Mind body and soul have all been disconnected.
Resistant Reluctant
Resistant, Reluctant. Something I intended to write quite a while ago… Underneath this body there is a broken smile, yet there are stars that still shine bright inside of me. Hope that sits behind my back. Tenderness that breaks into my heart. An interior self owned by fear. If it isn’t a laugh then it surely its a tear. Words of a single adventure into my interior. Perhaps I could...
Influenza H1N1
This road has taken much of me. Essentially because if you know me, Im not the type of human being who likes to be a potato couch. Im an active creature for whom the words “free time” simply just do not exist. In fact I had so much activity I barely even got any sleep some days of the week. Until last sunday mysteriously a high fever and a horrible headache kicked into my busy sunday...
This is for you
In memory of…. to you, to you who never had a voice. To you who never once complained about anything in life. To you which your voice would have meant something. To you, to you who I happened to know so well. To you who wakes up in the morning to try and fake a smile. To you who once knew yourself. This is yours. Take this, take this and make it your own. Praise yourself, honor your virtues....
February 2010
3 posts
My little head.
I don´t get to acomplish the volume of my thoughts. Im quite devided inside my head. There are twenty minutes of happinness and twenty more of sadness. Every emotion I live quite intensily. I don´t hesitate to cry when its time to cry. Very few things can make be indifferent about something. Go figured who Im, you will spend the rest of your life trying to. I promise you I will hold your hand and...
shit why is leaving not an option!